March 22, 2011

just wait.

sometimes, waiting can be agony.

it feels as if we've been waiting for months now--waiting for doctor's appointments, waiting for tests results, waiting for medicine to start working, just waiting. n. made it to his next treatment, which is a blessing for sure. but now, we wait to see if he can make it again, and feel better in the process. so again, we wait.

it's funny how doing "nothing" can be so tiring. perhaps this is when you begin to learn more of what faith really is. you can't control what's going on around you, and you

must learn to trust God's plan as each day passes without result.

this morning, i read in Streams in the Desert, thoughts about how moses waited forty years for God to call him to his purpose. while moses wasn't suffering during that

time, it still was a long time to wait, while God shaped him into who he needed to be to fulfill his destiny. here's what she had to say about it:
God is never in a hurry. he spends years preparing those He plans to greatly use, and never thinks of the days of preparation as being too long or boring.

the most difficult ingredient of suffering is often time. a short, sharp pain is easily endured, but when a sorrow drags on day after day with the same dull routine of hopeless agony, the heart loses its strength. without the grace of God, the heart is sure to sink into dismal dispair.

...but our faith may rest in the assurance that God is still seated on His throne. because of this assurance, we can calmly await the time when, in heavenly delight, we will say, 'all things [have] work[ed] together for good.' (rom.8:28)

[...] don't steal tomorrow from God's hands. give Him time to speak to you and reveal His will. He is never late--learn to wait.

God is so kind to remind us in the midst of trials that he is indeed working thing out for our good. and, ultimately, His glory. so in the meantime, i'll just wait.

ps. thanks for the love everyone, you're so kind to indulge my odd requests. also, i'm working on some things that apply to the next art, and i'm pretty excited to share it with you all. once i'm done, of course. :)


  1. Patience in life is key. ALL good things come to those who wait. Something that's handed to us is far less valued. So glad to hear N is getting better!

  2. ash... it's been awhile since we've connected, but i wanted to let you that I've been following you on fb + your blog. been praying for the three of you. whenever you have a lull, i'd love to plan a phone call/skype/etc. xxx -Kat


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